Toujours Liées

    That's strange.
    He was far behind me and in an instant I saw him next to me. In the dining hall I mean.
    And after we finished we came back to our rooms together. It is to say it was intentionnally, and on both sides I presume.
    When we said goodbye, I was nearly to cry, don't know why. Was it tiredness or a real sorrow... But I didn't know it was so strong.
    I was really in love with him, and it appears I'm still. I'm affraid 'cause I wonder whether I'll always be in love.
    It's a kind of dream, it was him. To me it was. And it's not easy to take away this idea. But I also know it's too late to do something : I'll never see him and it would be ridiculous. I'm not pesimistic I'm realistic. I suppose if it weren't too late, with my state of mind, I would have tried, really.
    But I also ask me if this dream shouldn't stay a dream. Sure I'm in love, but the reality is we never really discussed.
    Even so I know. Even so he's so attractive to me. Mayve 'cause he's a mystery behind his clownings.
    Please don't say try 'cause I say it every day to myself. But try something would not be correct regarding another guy.

    I feel like Cinderella in front of her Prince Charming. My halfsisters would be shyness and time, my steppmother would be fear.


    I was demorelazing. I don't know what to do, cause I've to send him a mail to fetch documents. Do I keep contact or not ? This may be natural for you, not as much for me. There're ants in my belly when I think to it !

    But I'm well :)